1. |
China Beach
02:04
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Learn to trust yourself, no one else matters
Respect the source and always welcome failure
There is a door, there is a key
Two ears to listen, one mouth to speak
Doubt is the enemy, you want out of where and you want in when?
Don’t get confused, get up, get up, get up, do it again
What are you made of, what do you dress it up in?
Who do you service, where does the power rest?
Say my name, now, say it again
Are you my enemy and are we at war?
What’s the happy ending?
Where’s the home you’re heading?
Are you the hunter? Am I the prey?
Don’t Breathe, don’t swallow
Don’t Breathe, don’t swallow
Don’t Breathe, don’t swallow
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Psychotic need
Psychotic feed
Psychotic shakes
Psychotic break
What a strange, strange room to arrive in
You got something to say?
Why are you looking at me man?
You got something to say? Go ahead and fucking say it man!
Behind the door, behind the curtain
You’ll always find what you go looking for
Sleep on a win, you’re going to wake up losing
I say what I mean, I just, I say what I mean eventually
Are you my enemy and are we at war?
Am I the hunter? Are you the prey?
Don’t Breathe, don’t swallow
Don’t Breathe, don’t swallow
Don’t Breathe, don’t swallow
Don’t Breathe, don’t swallow
Don’t Breathe, don’t swallow
Don’t Breathe, don’t swallow
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
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2. |
Born In Black
03:10
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Dancing towards the abyss
You and me swallowed up by a black hole
In perpetual concession
Infinite distance, eternal displacement
I cannot escape the pull
Fall into the collapse, let the time stretch
Doorways to the unknown, where hurt becomes love and pain is happiness
Born in black, we’ve only ever wanted to go back
Born in black, explode out of the ether, abandoned back into it
Dancing toward the abyss
You and me swallowed up by a black hole
In perpetual concession
I think I understand it now
I cannot escape the pull
Fall into the collapse, let the time stretch
The great distance unknown
This way to the exit, there’s no turning back
Born in black, we’ve only ever wanted to go back
Born in black, explode out of the ether, abandoned back into it
Born in black, we’ve only ever wanted to go back
Born in black, explode out of the ether, abandoned back into it
Born in black, we’ve only ever wanted to go back
Born in black, suicide medicine, kill yourself to live
Born in black, we knew where this was going, sweet illicit death
Born in black, this is where we begin, this is where we end
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3. |
The Airplane Song
02:30
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There’s an airplane with an empty seat
Flying over the ocean towards me
Bought the ticket but you didn’t show
Whole affair was over before it was even time to go
You’re mine, you’re mine I’m yours
Torn between two lovers
Final boarding and the cabin doors close
Cruising altitude and then the drinks are served
You’re not there drinking white wines complimentary
You’re not popping valiums, you’re not watching free movies
All trips come to an end
Some of them never begin
You’re mine, you’re mine I’m yours
Torn between two lovers
You’re mine, you’re mine I’m yours
Can’t have either or the other
You’re mine, you’re mine I’m yours
Torn between two lovers
Torn between two lovers
Always wanted to fall in love with an actor
Be okay with whomever they’re kissing that day
It’s only work, you know, we’ve all got to get paid
Not sure I’m ready for that but I’m sure I’m ready to change
What do pleasures of the flesh mean anyway?
We’re all growing old, all in decay
You’re mine, you’re mine I’m yours
Torn between two lovers
You’re mine, you’re mine I’m yours
Can’t have either or the other
You’re mine, you’re mine I’m yours
Torn between two lovers
You’re mine, you’re mine I’m yours
Can’t have either or the other
You say I love you, I’m not sure you do
You say that I love you and I’m torn between two lovers
You say I love you, I’m not sure you do
You say that I love you and I’m torn between two lovers
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4. |
Apocalypse Now (& Later)
02:15
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You make me walk away from the hate I carry
Same page, same ways, so effortlessly
I’ll put faith in you if you put faith in me
If we want it, it could be that easy
On top of the world at the end of the world with you
Don’t ever hold back what you’re saying to me
Don’t ever restrain, just be
I never half measure anything
If it’s worth it to you, that’s where I want to be
On top of the world at the end of the world with you
On top of the world at the end of the world with you
There’s nothing that can hold me back
Don’t have happy ever after just have here and now
On the Samhain of our souls watch the world burn in fire
The bliss of your kiss in the apocalypse
On top of the world at the end of the world with you
On top of the world at the end of the world with you
On top of the world at the end of the world
On top of the world at the end of the world
On top of the world at the end of the world with you
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5. |
Reality Bites
02:11
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Please say something
Your stutter gives me calm
I know there’s no rush to get there
They get you wrong
It really turns me on
I have no patience for them
You are so real
You are so real
You are so real
Your lazy eye
Lets you hold them in your stare
You can catch and release them
What does it say
Of someone who does not care
They can’t see the advantage
You are so real
You are so real
You are so real
No one wants to be themselves
They all want to be someone else
You didn’t try to get there
Incongruous, it says something
but no one’s ever listening
They kill themselves just to get there
You are so real
You are so real
You are so real
Yeah, you are so real
Yeah, you are so real
Yeah, you are so real
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6. |
Amsterdam Hotel Room
02:07
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The door is locked to my Amsterdam Hotel Room
Housekeeping knows not to bother me
I’ll leave the room clean
Take my trash with me
Thankful for the hospitality
I am a stranger in your city
And I can’t decide which song to dance with the Marchesa too
Dr. Dieu is up to his old shit again, sure looks handsome standing there in red
Spend the day with high society
Then crawl back to my room, make sure no one’s stolen anything
I want you to come try to find me
So I’m trying to manifest that kind of energy
I want you to come try to find me
Hiding out in my Amsterdam Hotel Room
Hiding out in my Amsterdam Hotel Room
Run laps in Vondel park evading unseen antagonists
Champagne haze and solid jams soundtrack the transcendence
The more that I can leave behind the less I have to carry
What seems so real in the ether is always gone, gone in the morning
Curtains drawn, blinds down, covers pulled tight up over my head
I can’t see out and nobody can see in and
I don’t know where the party is but I know how it ends
32 Beaufort Gardens, a grave plot in Brompton cemetery
Pop a top of Desperado, roll another J
It doesn’t have to be good to be remembered tasting that way
I want you to come try to find me
Hiding out in my Amsterdam Hotel Room
Hiding out in my Amsterdam Hotel Room
I want you to come try to find me
So I’m trying to manifest that kind of energy
I want you to come try to find me
Hiding out in my Amsterdam Hotel Room
Hiding out in my Amsterdam Hotel Room
Freaking the fuck out in my Amsterdam Hotel Room
Hiding out in my Amsterdam Hotel Room
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7. |
The Friendship Song
03:04
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You and me are two in the same, we both push until it breaks
And if it’s going to cave we’re going to give it all of our weight
No, we don’t need no defense, spoken out on our behalf
If we’re reprehensible, then we like it like that
No, I don’t have many friends
I only ever seem to fuck over them
You’re not like the rest of them
You accept me for who I am
And I don’t judge you for it, and that’s what friendship is
You and me would make a great team in an apocalypse scenario
Gotta know when to lead gotta know when to lay back and follow
I know you wouldn’t hesitate to eat an arm to save a leg
You’re a survivor like me and goddamnit I like that
No, I don’t have many friends
I only ever seem to fuck over them
You’re not like the rest of them
You accept me for who I am
And I don’t judge you for it, and that’s what friendship is
You and me can be hard to take, we’ve got alligator mouths and hummingbird wings
We can see ourselves out, always find a way back in
All alone, it’s not the same but together we’ve got a really good thing
Let’s try not to fuck it up, I’ll always meet you halfway
No, I don’t have many friends
I only ever seem to fuck over them
You’re not like the rest of them
You accept me for who I am
Please forgive me for who I am
And I don’t judge you for it, and that’s what friendship is
And I don’t judge you for it and that’s what friendship is
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8. |
I Hate Chicago
03:03
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I hate the city of Chicago
Man, this place feels like nowhere
And the traffic makes getting nowhere take that much longer
I hate the Cubs, the Sox, the Blackhawks, and the Bulls
I could give a shit about the Pumpkins, Slint or Wilco
Learn how to make a pizza you fucking jack offs
Say “Hello” back whens someone says “Hello” you asshole
I hate O’hare, I hate Midway, I can’t stand Chicago
The best part is leaving cause maybe one day I’ll never come back again
And if I die in this shithole, float my corpse down the Calumet
Cause I’d rather rot in Gary
Miller Beach may actually be paradise
Alright, Christ, you caught me, this is actually just another divorce song
Maybe it’s not all of Cook County’s fault
But it feels like another dogshit day in suck city
Jesus Christ, could you assholes at least learn how to drive
Fuck XRT and Fuck Lollapalooza
You and all your self righteous hipster hoods can go to hell
I especially hate Bridgeport cause that’s where she lives
For every reason that she loves it, I can’t stand Chicago
But when I head North on Lakeshore Drive I fly and I close my eyes
And I reach the magic point and I run for magic miles
Yeah ,when I head North on Lakeshore Drive I fly and I close my eyes
And I reach the magic point and I run for magic miles
Lake Michigan becomes an ocean
And I know somewhere beyond it is waiting just for me
No matter how high you dickheads build it, you’ll only ever be in Illinois
And that will always be way too close to Missouri
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9. |
Screamy Dreamy
02:05
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Please come down now and go to sleep
Tomorrow’s already here today
Stop thinking and just try to dream
Please come down now and go to sleep
Walk with you through hotel gardens
Overlooking the Balearic Sea (Iberian Sea)
Columbus flowers and Bella Donna blooming
into the ether forever vanishing… yeah
Please come down now and go to sleep
Tomorrow’s already here today
Stop thinking and just try to dream
Please come down now and go to sleep
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10. |
Manic Depression
03:48
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I need something or someone to keep me sane. Otherwise, I’m going to waste another day staring at my fucking phone thinking about everyone and everything I fucking hate and how life is never going to change. I’m not sure what I look forward to anymore, but I welcome sleep and only will smoking weed kill the dread and the anxiety. Try to recognize privilege present and I’m thankful for good fortune. Don’t want to sound ungrateful or like I can’t see the good going…
But I can’t help what my head is telling me
I can’t stop myself from listening
Manic Depression, yeah
Endless obsessions, yeah
Manic Depression…
I can see everything you show me but you don’t say anything. I’m so fucking over indirect vagueness, if you lack passion just stop trying. How can I justify complicity when you’re standing right in front of me? I can see what I can see and that needs no apology.
I need something or someone to relieve the tension and the anxiety. Give me sex or drugs or destruction, some kind of excitement please. Even if it’s terrifying, shake the, smack the shit out of me. Turn me upside down otherwise I’m going to drink and drink and drink
Cause I can’t help what my head is telling me
I can’t stop myself from listening
Manic Depression, yeah
Endless obsessions, yeah
No, I can’t help what my head is telling me
I can’t stop myself from listening
Manic Depression, yeah
Endless obsessions, yeah
Manic Depression…
Endless obsessions, yeah
Manic Depression…
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11. |
The Acid Test Song
03:06
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Catholic girl from Montreal
She talked heavy and strong
And I was okay with it
Bullet in the street
Looks like luck to me
No doubt we’re tangled now
It’s happened before
Has yet to ever work out
Cut me off a strip of hits
Be careful with that shit
All the songs that I could sing for you
Will never mean anything to you
Only heard what your name was
Never said where my faith was
Catholic girl from Saint Louis
She talked stoned, rambling on
And I was okay with it
Franchised youth groups
Primitive baptist
Double parked at the Vatican
You’re leaving with her
I think I’m not okay with it
Cut me off a strip of hits
Be careful with that shit
All the songs that I could sing for you
Will never mean anything to you
Only heard what your name was
I never said where my faith was
All the songs that I could sing for you
Will never mean anything to you
All the songs that I could sing for you
Will never mean anything to you
All the songs that I could sing for you
Will never mean anything to you
Only heard what your name was
I never said where my faith was
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12. |
The Hotel Song
02:49
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Make your best move, I’m going to let you win
I’m not about trying to feel threatened
Empty a bottle in a bucket in a puddle by an unmade hotel queen bed
It’s about check out time
Alright, I’m coming
Always be preparing to leave
Always keep dropping what you don’t need
And be going before love becomes disappointing
Always be preparing to leave
Always keep dropping what you don’t need
And be gone before love turns to resentment
I want something from you, even though I shouldn’t ask for it
I want something from you even though I can’t receive it
Two beats longer to hold onto then I’m going to make a sudden and destructive action
Like say something I don’t mean, say something hurtful and foolish
Always be preparing to leave
Always keep dropping what you don’t need
And be going before love becomes disappointing
Always be preparing to leave
Always keep dropping what you don’t need
And be gone before love turns to resentment
I sleep in my jeans and I die in my sleep
I sleep in my jeans and I die in my sleep
I sleep in my jeans and I die in my sleep
I’ll be gone in the morning
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13. |
Valeria Golino
03:15
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She hasn’t done a thing since ’97 but she’s slowly building for a rally
Exercise and rest, eating a healthy diet
Singular in focus and concept
What I’ve said has destroyed me mouth
My words were misanthropic
Now my teeth are falling out of my head
I don’t have much time left to say something
It doesn’t do it for me
It doesn’t do it for me
I need eye contact
I need eye contact
It doesn’t do it for me
It doesn’t do it for me
It doesn’t do it for me
It doesn’t do it for me
She hasn’t done a thing since ’97 but she’s slowly building for a rally
Exercise and rest, eating a healthy diet
Singular in focus and concept
What I’ve said has destroyed me mouth
My words were misanthropic
Now my teeth are falling out of my head
I don’t have much time left to say something
Now I can take a beating, wake up strong in the morning
Keep the punches coming
I’m novocaine numb, I can’t feel fuck all nothing
Your perception is not my purpose
So what if a camera recorded
While I lay naked on the table
I was completely motionless
I let everything happen
But she could not make me orgasm
It doesn’t do it for me
It doesn’t do it for me
I need eye contact
I need eye contact
It doesn’t do it for me
It doesn’t do it for me
I need eye contact
I need eye contact
I need eye contact
I need eye contact
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14. |
The Apology Song
02:54
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My apologies for however I’ve fucked up
Don’t want your life to be any harder than it has to
Sometimes letting go is showing love
Just because I’m gone doesn’t mean that you weren’t enough
Want you to ride easy, rest assured
You’re always more than enough no matter what you’ve got
Want you to ride easy, rest assured
You belong where you are and you can go wherever the fuck you damn well want
My apologies for however I have yet to fuck up
One day you’ll learn from your mistakes too
Most everyone doesn’t know just what they’ve got
For you my love will burn eternal
Want you to ride easy, rest assured
You’re always more than enough no matter what you’ve got
Want you to ride easy, rest assured
You belong where you are and you can go wherever the fuck in the world you want
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